oh yess! i'm a great pretender~

Have you ever said to someone (or wanted to, but didn’t)… 

“Will you please just listen to me.”  

How many times have you been trying to tell someone 

something and they were just not listening?

yeah..

lately.. i felt those..

( u dont realizaed??! well, I'm a good pretender by the way)

pretending that I'm doing well..

pretending happy and gay like a clown.

pretending lyfe is easy and no need to worry..

Sometimes, when I'm just really sick of feeling like crap, 

I do pretend, 

because I believe somehow  that if you pretend

long enough you might start to believe it and it will be true.

yeah.. sumtimes it helps~

but sumtimes I feel dat my heart can't conceal

and my tear gland cannot be supportive nemore..

after all i realized,

how long can I pretend ?

is my heart strong enuff to swallow all these pretending-craps?

seriously i have no idea

"...oh ALLAH, i beg for your help..

i know YOU wont challenge me if I'm  not fit and strong enuff..

oh LORD, whatever it takes.. YOU definitely knows the best..." 

teary + wounded,  

the great pretender

*who has no idea of when she shud stop doing dat*